Wrote this around 5/6 years ago. Everything I write is about my feelings. I hope I write songs with emotions. I do have issue with spelling and grammar so please be gentle with me.
The emotions I feel
Swirling lights and noisy sounds.
Turns my head when I'm in town.
Then it hits me; my head starts to explode.
There’s nothing I can do I just have to let go.
You don't know what its like to be me.
Maybe someday you will see.
While people all around me are popping pills.
Taking there own risks just to get their thrills.
My drug chooses when to come alive.
It’s all I can do to try and survive.
There is no way I can explain.
The emotion I feel when it hit’s my brain.
People see nothing as it takes control.
How can, they see what’s inside my soul.
When it takes a hold, you feel so alone.
Where ever you are, its like you’re on your own.
I have to leave and be alone.
It’s the only way I’ll make it until I'm home.
I try my hardest to be free.
But I can’t shake off what’s a part of me.
My drug chooses when to come alive.
It’s all I can do to try and survive.
There is no way I can explain.
The emotion I feel when it hit’s my brain.
I know to some people they may feel.
They see nothing wrong, what’s the big deal.
But until you’ve been there, you won’t understand.
Or know how to help with a guiding hand.
I often sit and wonder why?
Do I have this pain that’s apart of me?
The only thing that’s keeping me alive,
Is the hope I will be free from what’s inside?
My drug chooses when to come alive.
It’s all I can do to try and survive.
There is no way I can explain.
The emotion I feel when it hit’s my brain.
