[Sellon]

So, some rather bad news, I've been admitted to a psychiatric hospital, hahaha, I might have schizophrenia or schizo-affective disorder (Which is bipolar and schizophrenia put together basically) anyway, there's a few reasons this happened, but I loved someone....and I don't really feel much for people, so it's hard for me to love, but...I was so dead I couldn't be with her, we broke up, I left her because I couldn't let her see me like that, literally, I would just sleep all day and night...anyway...I got better, and now she hates me, it's a hard life, but isn't it supposed to be? basically my mind shattered into pieces because of it...Fucked me up good...I'll review some stuff abit later, I've kinda got a lot of thinking to do and not in the state of mind i should be...anyway, wish me luck, I'm gonna try and get better.


The dust from beneath your feet
Settles down on the earth below
I can't take this month of heat
I wish it would snow
I tripped my tongue on all of these words to you
I wish I could let you go
But I don't think I can do this alone

I gave up long ago
When I lost my home...
And recently I've lost everything
I've been searching for anything
But the bottom of the ocean is cold and lonely
So I hope you find this message fast
Because I'm moving backwards into the past
I need you now more than I've ever needed anyone before...

The thought of leaving  you alone
Hurts more than anything
Like my heart has been set in stone
Never to beat again
I hope that you're better off
Or at least better off than I am
I could never wish this on you
Even after all the things you put me through
I hope you're not alone
Cause loneliness will never let you go

I gave up long ago
When I lost my home...
And recently I've lost everything
I've been searching for anything
But the bottom of the ocean is cold and lonely
So I hope you find this message fast
Because I'm moving backwards into the past...
I need you now more than I've ever needed anyone before...

I don't wanna go home
In this broken body I used to own
The cracks in my life have grown
I'll fall apart one day soon...
I'll fall apart into you
Then you'll have to choose..
Then I'll have to choose...

I gave up long ago
When I lost my home...
And recently I've lost everything
I've been searching for anything
But the bottom of the ocean is cold and lonely
So I hope you find this message fast
Because I'm moving backwards into the past...
I need you now more than I've ever needed anyone before...

[nooms]

mindblowing heartbreaking words sellon
wish you well mate

[jmacdon]

Beautiful.

The words "lost everything" and "ocean" reminded me of the loss of Sendai in 2011.  The challenge now is to find a song around which these lovely lyrics will fit.

[The Corsair]

Sellon, you always post very deep stuff that hits at the heart. I think this, though, seems the heaviest I've seen from you (probably because I have further information about it to some degree).

As poor a phrase as 'get well soon' is in this situation I hope it conveys my sentiments. It's terrible to hear what you have been through and are still going through and I, along with everyone else here I'm sure, hope that you manage to find a way through it.

[Kafla]

You really are so talented mate

If you haven't got the means to put these to music please get them off to publishers as poems

I have just written a song called seabed incase you think I am stealing  Ha ha

Ace

[Sellon]

Thanks everyone, means a lot, it really does, also, uhh, I wouldn't know where to start with getting them published or anything, anyone got any ideas?

[stokie63]

Thanks everyone, means a lot, it really does, also, uhh, I wouldn't know where to start with getting them published or anything, anyone got any ideas?

So deep full of passion and moving look forward to here some more ,get well soon.