This is about my Crossdressing
Ashamed
When i was young I had so many dreams
running up the street to buy my ice cream
I don’t know when everything changed
I don’t have a date my life re-arranged
It wasn’t like I was happy the next I weren’t
I think over time that my soul just got burnt
I used to think that I was the only one
who’d wear my mums clothes when she went out
I was 11 years old and I just joined the scouts
I didn’t know what was wrong with my head
Someday I just wanted to be dead
I couldn’t tell no one one
I was so ashamed
but I couldn’t stop and I lived with the blame
nowadays every body says it’s ok
but how do I let go of my yesterdays
living in fear of the sound of the door
convinced I’d be caught and beaten for sure
playing with the boys over the park
but hurting inside it broke my heart
watching the girls playing their games
wishing I could join them
Feeling ashamed
