Hi Katie,
Rather than destroy yourself, what if you went through a metamorphosis, like when the caterpillar becomes the butterfly? Just an idea.
Hope you're doing okay. I'm glad to see you back. I've been super busy but I'm starting to find time to hang around here more, a good sign. Anyway, these are very painful lyrics as they are. I don't like them for that reason. They feel hopeless and self destructive.
Take care,
Lynn