[katiewilson1]

I'm gonna kill myself

I'm gonna kill myself
I'm gonna mill myself
because I can't be myself

I feel the end is coming
I can't keep on running
I can't keep lying anymore

I'm gonna walk outta the door
and not look back anymore

You think I'm saying It for attention
maybe I ammm but I need some help
can't you read in between the lines

When I tell you that I'm fine
it ain't true , I thought you knew

I'm gonna kill myself
I'm gonna kill myself
because I can't me myself

I'm not doing it for attention
Can't you see how much I'm struggimg
I'm hanging on the edge of civilisation

I'm gonna kill myself
I'm gonna kill myself
and the music's gonna stop forever 

[PopTodd]

I hope that this is a metaphorical "killing" and not a true call for help.
If you really are feeling that way, please do call somebody—a professional—and talk about it with somebody who can help you sort things out.

[katiewilson1]

Thanks Pop , I'm ok I've felt like this and had thoughts like this my whole life, I'd never do anything because I have people who love me and it would ruin their life's as well , that's why writing is so important to me - I see my role as getting out there and trying to show the world what being Trans is all about and opening doors for people behind me

Thanks for caring I'll be ok honest, I just have days when I want to self destruct xxx

[PopTodd]

We all do, Katie. And I'm glad that you're feeling okay (for the most part).
It's got to be difficult to have been born in the wrong body. I feel for you, even if I cannot feel how you feel. I cannot imagine, but I am glad that you are finding ways to make yourself a positive force. Many kudos and much love.

[Paulski]

Hi Katie

Sorry you feel that way sometimes and this lyric must be cathartic for you to some extent.
But - if you really want to help others who are sometimes suicidal, I would suggest you rewrite this and call it "I'm Not Going to Kill Myself". I think that song could become a rallying cry.

Paul

[katiewilson1]

Thanks I think it's just a cry for help that I let out now and then , most of the time I'm ok but sometimes it's just too much

[Bobby Burrows]

I'd love to work with this if you don't mind working with me, I'm 31, in the London area, this piece looks cool.

[josemar]

Hi Katie,
I think all of us, feel pretty shit most of the time....if not every day, sections of the day...
Goin over past regrets...feeling inferior to others etc..
I do understand you're position is different to people...but everybody has problems....and they fester  in our heads.

You could divert your energies to writing...write often...with a goal to improve....Read Jason Blumes book 6 Steps....for starters......

Consider your sex to be unique....seeing things differently than the rest...use it to your advantage...

I hope what I say helps...i