Hey tone,
It's not really self doubt. Writing is a well trodden path for me and I have learned so many different approaches that I can craft a song whether I have inspiration or not. A song might start out quite average until something's magical happens to make it sparkle. I'm happy to say that I'm never really disappointed.
It's no secret that my marriage of more than twenty years ended just over three years ago. Prior to that, music was my life. I was settled and would seize the opportunity to write and record whenever possible. I could write and produce at speed. I threw myself into writing the most personal collection of songs immediately after the break up - I have a beautiful and sad 10 track album called 'The Jagged Coast' (all about the end of 26 year relationship- something that I never wanted). The album is in demo format - acoustic guitar and vocal only. It was always my intention to revisit it one day and fully produce the rough recordings that I had started whilst staying with my sisters family. I produced a single track called 'Shipwrecked' then stored the full album of sketches onto a memory stick. I then abandoned my love of songwriting, secured a new job - completely changed career and decided to truly live. I wrote a collection of lovely songs a year later for my new love (Broadband Movie, Liverpool One, Lost, Should Love Decide) - so many that I forgot how to play them all as I didn't notate anything. I then stopped writing - kind of thought 'that's it' I don't need to do this anymore. I worked hard, looked after my children on my days off and travelled to my new partner who lives in the North West - I live in the North East. We have had some wonderful times together and travelled to several wonderful places too. There has been so little time to accomodate music. I am pleased that I have returned home to the forum again. I have several new guitars and new recording equipment that I will have to teach myself how to use. I have forgotten so much theory that was once second nature. However, there is something inside that keeps telling me, I'm not quite finished and that I should write again. I believe that there is a beautiful album waiting to be written and hopefully, I will write about many of my new experiences.
Despite buying a lovely new house, I haven't made it my home. I'm sure that's will happen when I eventually move to the North West to be with my partner. I've moved on so much. My partner and I were engaged last New Year's Eve. The marriage break up, brought a multitude of changes.
Anyway, that's where I am re music and life. I talked to nooms via email the other day. I've promised to write music for him to work his magic on. I'd love to share our collaboration 'Hammersmith Bridge' and equally I'd love to share my composition 'The Angels Cried' - both written to the same piece of music.
Thank you for making me feel so welcome and your kind words of support.
Paul
