I am working on the assumption that everyone who uses this forum writes songs in one way or another so I'm hoping that someone will chime in and tell me I'm not as sad or unsociable as I'm feeling.
I was at a wedding at the weekend of a close family member; lots of good food, alcohol flowing, a good dj, friends, family, dancing the whol shbang. And while I was there I thought to myself, I'd rather be at home, in my studio, on my own writing a song, I'd enjoy that more.
Anyone else ever feel similar or am I just heading down the road of becoming a recluse?
Yodasdad
Dunno if this is what was going through your mind and emotions or not.
Whenever I have a similar thing happen, it usually comes down to this.
If I'm going to be alone, I'd prefer to do it by myself instead of with a crowd. Sometimes the NUMBER of people around you/me/us isn't relevant. What IS relevant is how many of those people are willing to drop the barriers and have a meaningful and revealing conversation.
I won't say it's depressing, but I'll use the word "disappointing" instead. Whenever I'm surrounded by people, but there is no opportunity for meaningful contact, it's disappointing. . . and I'd rather have been alone.
If people are available to me, and I just don't take an interest, that's a different thing - entirely on me in that case. Sometimes I can be a bit of an unsociable twit and get wrapped up in myself and turn down potential contacts.