So this is a song I wrote for my partner.
He put so much effort into making my recent birthday the best I've ever had. And I know that I can sometimes be a bit stoic. I don't outwardly express emotions very easily, and I prefer to use them in more creative ways (songwriting, general piano- and uke-slaying, etc).
I wrote this to remind him that I love him. Even when I don't shout it from the top of buildings. Because that's just not what I do.
It didn't have a title until I decided to share it with you lovely folk. So if you have a better one then let me know. It's a pretty simple 3-chord uke song.
I control my feelings
But it's easy to forget it
And be taken by a moment
Even if I do not let it
I do not get high on happy
I am not consumed by problems
I have thoughts and when I think them
I am never frightened of them.
I go running til my feet ache
Then I run until I can't breathe
And I lock myself in rooms of thought
When I can't walk, I can't leave.
And I cannot heal without you
And I love you, and I know it.
I love "An Affair To Remember"
But then cinemas don't show it.
But once I went to the pictures
And spent an hour with an usher
On the subject of a movie
In which Carey Grant met Deborah Kerr
And about a hundred people
Sat and watched the same film I did
But a lady in the foyer
Knew what I'd rather be watching.
And maybe I could have shouted out
And asked them on a date
To meet them all in six months time
On the top floor of the Empire State
But they would not have listened
And they would think that I was crazy
And I would have had to leave
So they could watch the film, but maybe
I will not see Deborah Kerr cry
For another year or more
And if she's still alive she'll never know
And she will not feel sore
About it.
I'm sorry I don't show you
Just how much I really love you
Like a film I never watch
I always have so much to do
But I would rather watch you sleeping
I would rather hear you snoring
I would rather love you quietly
Than let love make me boring
And I hope you understand me
Well enough to love me back
Despite my flaws and all my failings
I know there must be a knack.