I put this song in the lyrics section a few days ago. I wrote this mainly on my guitar, but mostly without instruments, so I sat down today with my piano and tried to form a melody and this is what I came up with. I wanted the melody to reflect on my emotions through each section of the song. This is not a typical "me" song, but whenever I write sad, personal songs I usually end up with recording them with piano.
This is the most personal song I have ever written, that is about me. It is a reflection on my past and on how fast mental illness can appear. I hope my music and this song, in particular, can help to put light on mental health. Anyways, I hope you like it!
Lyrics:You tell me that it’s alright
You know shit about my fight
Every day I put on a smile on my face
But everyone knows its fake
What difference does it make
If I’m happy or I just pretend
It’s a choice that I take
We’re all going to die in the end
I’ve been pulling away from you
I just had a lot to go through
There’s so much I should have told you
Is it too late for me now
If sobriety was the right call
Why I’m I the only one to fall
I would have given you all my love
Can you please forgive me
Maybe I wish my anxiety would stay
It was all I ever had that eased the pain
Sometimes I wish, I gave up on life
Closed my eyes for a minute and said my goodbyes
That’s not me
That’s not me
That’s not me
Living life on pills with anxiety
That’s not me
That’s not me
I’ve given up life with anxiety