Michael, that's funny that you don't think you have real success. Your songs are consistently highly praised and often win song of the month. You're quite successful.
But I can see why you'd say that, because when you get that kind of praise from other songwriters, you must feel should be able to make a living doing this. I don't know why you're not. You should be.
Since the world is apparently not fair 🤔, I hope you just keep making songs for yourself and us. But mainly yourself, because there may come a time where most of the forum doesn't like one of them, or stops reviewing you for who knows what reason, and you shouldn't let that stop you. That might be the song that resonates with the powers that be. So I hope this helps. You have a unique talent. It would be a shame if you stopped using it.