I've been absent from the forum for a little while. Prior to taking a break, I wrote a song that I was extremely happy with called 'hopes and fears.' I kind of thought, "yeah, I'm really happy with my writing ability and I'm right where I need to be in life" then came the curve ball.
At the end of January, my cousin passed away unexpectedly at a very young age after a sudden illness. This coincided with the end of my relationship in the same week. It was the end of a 5 year relationship. I had tried so hard to hold it together. It knocked me off my feet and to some extent, I went a little of the rails and almost lost myself. I left my job and moved across the country to be with my family. I quickly found a new job that I'm about start on Monday.
I then wrote two songs out of plain necessity: 'No Valentine' and 'I Don't Have You.' I then stopped whilst I searched for something to ground my life again. I know that only time and love will help me to fully heal. I've managed to navigate to a place of peace but I'm wondering if I will ever find a strong desire to write again. Writing comes so easily to me and I know that it is cathartic. Is it normal to feel that you no longer wish to write and also that you have nothing left to prove? Perhaps, the Spring will arrive along with the sun and then the Summer. Perhaps life will calm and I'll settle further before the desire to be creative returns. Anyway, this at least explains my absence over the last couple of months.
Paul