This is the first album worth of songs I wrote. I'm trying to do something beyond just writing lyrics and it doesn't always translate. This is a wall of text, there was some deeper meaning to it that I mostly forget. It's staccato but Homer got away with it. I break lines early, usually it is to facilitate a third meaning that only exists when looking at the "lines" separately but here, the lines were written as they were sung.
The Process
Stockholm Syndrome
A New Dogma
Mind the Wolves
A Bad Trip
Insomnia
La Reata
Weeds
Never Heavier Sky
Marble Maiden
1THE PROCESS
Raise,
Raise me right
I'll never fall if I always crawl
Under the glow of a fluorescent light
Save my mind,
Don't teach me about pain
I'll be right all along
If I don't know wrong
Or they might just be the same
If I can't tell time
I will live forever
My mind and heart
May never sever
If I don't know better
I will not complain
Without pride
I cannot be shamed
;I see Rapture
When I close my eyes
Start to fall asleep
When they're open wide
All I've known
Is Purgatory
And that it is
The best thing for me
;I'll put my faith
In anything
If I'll live on past my days
I'll live on in ignorance
In place of malaise
You lie to me
To justify
Why you're living life this way
Raise,
Raise me right
Against the wall I can watch it all
I know it has my back
Seeing clear
Through glass eyes
My perception fades to black
2STOCKHOLM SYNDROME
Let me start living by
My own ideals
I can't go on
Knowing only what you tell me's real
It's harder than you think
To watch the paint peel
Am I wrong?
How am I supposed to feel?
Won't you offer me
My one last meal
Before you turn away?
Is nothing ever exactly how you say?
I've seen your truth
For so long now
It's time to make my own
Stockholm syndrome
;I don't know why
The more time I spend with you
The more I feel alone
I've been fed so many lies
They've put meat on my bones
Everything's a shade of grey
And you're monotone
3A NEW DOGMA
If you wanted things to stay the same
You should have just stayed home
Where the wind won't direct you
Where the sun won't persuade you
If you wanted your silence
You should have stayed all alone
Where my noise won't distract you
And you can think
For yourself
But I'm not gonna
Leave that easily
;Never wanting any more than needed
Needing more than you could ever want
Forgetting faces as they close the door
Still hear them through
The walls they haunt
Acceptance is the ask
Tolerance is the offer
Take what you can amass
And leave what you came for
;If you wanted things to stay the same
You should have just stayed home
Where the wind won't choke you
And the moon is always framed
4MIND THE WOLVES
We were cursed
Born without a snout
Mind the wolves
Before they turn you inside out
Woven in the flock
Your snarl gives you away
Devour the sheep
That you portray
;Moss crept to your doorstep
And you were none the wiser
It's that green hue
You've known so long that now red seems brighter
There is an edge around every bend
Mend the circle, find the end
Someone's killing crows
I wonder how
They catch them
;Another loss in the murder
With no victims to find
Faster without those
Who were falling behind
It's trivial
To mourn the new
Tasteless hunger mind the few
There isn't much I wouldn't do
But all that's left I'd ask of you
A different species, we're a world apart
I'm an
Automaton with a handgrenade heart
I said
'Finding peace wouldn't take persistence
But a fool's perspective on your sad existence'
;Another good dog trained to bite
Stole your throat just to survive
Another coward taught to fight
Using all his words in spite
;The shepherd offers ignorance
The wolves promise more
They both eat your kind
Steel wool is forced
Things have changed
'Sall we know
All us sheep in wolves clothes
5A BAD TRIP
It's not that it's a bad trip
It's that I think I'm falling for it
I never knew when I made my bed
That I
Would lay here for so long
Kept trying to tell myself that this
Would be the last one
My friend,
How could you betray?
It's too easy for me to say
That tomorrow
I'll be able to stay away
;I fell so slow but it
Went so fast
You lift me so high up
But it
Doesn't last
I try to tell you that
Somewhere in this bad trip is me
I've fallen overboard and waves
Are all I see
;And I'll try to convince myself
That this was not my fault
6INSOMNIA
I can't put you down
I know I'm not the only one
Who would trade it all away
To just feel numb
I need some inspiration
It's missing from me
Illusions of grandeur
Are all I see
All the days
Are all the same
I'll try to sleep
To stay sane
Half asleep
Half awake
You might be a dream
A chance I'll take
;I'm not sleeping yet
;Giving up
Becomes a chore
But I think I could manage
Once more
;I know I'd feel
If I could move
My exhaustion has left me subdued
Every face
And every word
Distorted 'till they're all absurd
Wake me up
From this daze
Clear my head from this hypnotic haze
I can't sleepwalk for the rest of my days
;Nothing more that I can do
To silence my mind
Looking for an excuse
To waste my time
;I'm not sleeping yet
Cause my time is vital
7LA REATA
I'm trailing in the human race
Find it hard
To keep the pace
Lost track one too many times
Settled in this place
Memories laid to waste
By all I've used
To drown these days
Now the lines on my dust covered map
Have turned to walls
And if I'm not careful
Everyone will turn to stone
Could you stand to see me fall?
Watch me crumble mind and all?
;Can't find a way to liberate me
When all my past does
Is complicate me
No more contemplating
Whether I should be free
I've seen enough to know
I'll never know what lies ahead of me
And maybe if I step into the light
I'll be seen
;My elbows have decayed
And my ankles just gave way
As I limp my arms sway
Swing like pendulums
Counting down the day
;Tortured by confinement
In this concrete cube
Obscured by insanity
No place for a proper view
These supports that held me up
Are
No longer strong enough
Clairvoyance is so abrupt,
Those strings have all been cut
Ascension is so corrupt
Those doors have all been shut
I can't stand to see you fall,
Watch you crumble mind and all
8WEEDS
Spread your seeds of parody
Starve out all the grass with weeds
Knight your slaves, Your Majesty
And strike one down for all to see
;I know you boiled the seas
And burned the deserts down
I was there when you made the world
Spin the other way around
I saw you trade your sight
To kill the sun you found too bright
The you that I knew
Never knew what was right
But now you're strange
And now you might
;Spread your seeds of irony
Starve out all the grass with weeds
Terrified you'll never leave
As long as I believe in you
;Spread your seeds of tragedy
Starve out all the grass with weeds
Grew to tall for me to see
Strangled by the blades and reeds
9NEVER HEAVIER SKY
Come on closer
I will count my steps
Tunnel deeper
I will reach your depths
But you're a poltergeist
You are just a vision
In the corner of my eye
You're a satellite
Every step I take
You drift further away
;Well, oh well
The clouds are rolling in
If you're gonna get soaked
You might as well swim
You'll lose it all slow
Unless you go all in
;You're so shallow, you know
That floating face down
You're still deep enough to drown in
You're so irrational
Taking every step
In two directions
;You're so impossible
Showing other skies
In your reflection
;I'm at the mercy of the undertow
And the never heavier sky
That's pushing me below
0MARBLE MAIDEN
I made a unique coffin
And now I'll strive to fit inside
What will keep me from the jagged nails?
What will keep me from my jaded thoughts?
What will keep you from remembering me
and help you see that I am not?
;All I built fell apart
Now a path once an arch
Carved from stone
My demons are faceless
Spinning a web
In case this goes wrong
Keep them safe for me
In case this takes too long
You hailed on Mary
Now she's unconscious
When did you get so cruel?
;I tried so long to calm my nerves
Now I've scared them straight
Gave myself what I deserve
Should've starved but I took the bait
My hair all turned to snakes
When I killed you with a gaze
Don't count on me to light the way
I'll leave you blind
I'll lead astray