I just wrote this at work. It's still a bit too fresh in my mind for me to tell if I like it or not. But in for a penny; in for a pound. It's a song about feeling awful about being unable to return somebody's feelings for you. Despite caring for them a great deal. It has a working title of "Scavenge".
I need a piano in my office...
We went for dinner in a little Italian joint,
A door in a wall off the main stretch of Belvoir Street.
I hadn't realised by how far I'd missed the point
And when you explained, it was hard to believe it.
We grabbed a taxi to take us to alcohol
And you found a corner away from the floor.
Outside it was snowing, and Soviet astronauts
Walked in the footprints we'd left there before.
Circling issues like scavengers waiting,
The first one to strike gets a meal from the dying.
The motion was carried. And I was left hating
Myself for the times that I hadn't been trying.
I spent the next day embracing a coffee cup.
I spent the night going down on a cigarette.
I sat in the lamplight. I drank. And I conjured up
Reasons why I wasn't ready to love you yet.
Midnight, or thereabouts, I missed your phone call.
I didn't return it. I walked to your door.
The look in your Laika-like eyes said it all
And I'm still so sorry I didn't say more.
Scavengers like me don't do the killing.
It's easy to sit down and wait for the wounded.
The world is so full of the lonely and willing,
But nobody made me feel sorry 'til you did.