Hey Fendi welcome.
"Writing really helps me emotionally" always a great reason to write.
You got some really good lyric lines there but to me it read like you as the writer can only get yourself in there because you know whats going on in there and believe me thats okay, but when you're finish writing you have to read it as the reader not the writer.
If you dont mind i want you to read this again as the reader not the writer and re write what needs to be re written and post it again, but dont delete what here.